living up to who I am
I’m not a knight or a warrior. I can’t fight another person’s fight.
Every time I do. I end up wrong.
I can’t wear their clothes.
They don’t fit. I look silly.
I can’t walk in their shoes.
When I try I fall down.
I wonder at how long it took me to understand this.
I need to sing my own song.
It’s not a selfish thing. It’s a surrender to who I am.
I can toss and turn, stretch and skew an idea, but I can’t change the way my brain works. I can walk all the way around and through a thought or a belief, but I can’t change the chemistry or the electricity of a single synapse — slow them down maybe — but not reroute and remap the system to work as another brain might.
I can be reimagine, recreate, and reinvent solutions.
But I can’t reimagine who I am.
I can’t recreate life of experience and learning.
I can’t reinvent the DNA that makes the unique me.
In that uniqueness is where I found my values and the most valuable traits I offer.
The sun can’t stop shining to become a planet.
We count on its “star-ness” — the energy, heat, and light it offers.
People are made of the same stuff as stars.
I need to bring the best “me-ness” — the energy, mind, and heart I offer.
Living up to what I am is a far better use of my life than trying to become something I’m not.
Be irresistible.
